Simba…
So its done, its over, and its all my fault. AWESOME!
Girl number 1 is gone. Girl number 2 i dont really have a desire to see again and looks like im just going to be friends with girl number 3. Absolutely brilliant. You can be feeling awesome and confident one minute, then the next your world comes crumbling down.
Right now i feel like Simba, i feel like running away because i think i killed my father.
Unfortunately theres no timone or pumba for me to runaway to.
Theres no nala thats always loved me and is going to stumble accross me.
Its even becoming hard to look in the mirror and tell myself that i am awesome, and number 1.
Maybe i am destined to be king one day, but its not today. All i have is loneliness and my ps3.
I am getting to know some awesome people, but what i need right now is someone i feel emotionally close to. What i need is some hope for the future, but its fading fast as the glow of the affect she had on me starts to wear down.
I really dont have anyone else that i feel that close to.
She was the one that picked me up when i was at my worst. she was the one that gave me a chance when the whole world was against me. Shes the only one thats ever thought i was sexy. Iv only felt amazing and like an actual human being because i met her. I was broken before i met her, and she fixed me. Wow, just remembering all that…
On top of all that most of my family is over east, going to have christmas over there so ill be left alone here. Housemates might be here but thats it.
Normally what i do when im feeling like this is to go see mum and dad, but theyre not here. I have no booster, so this is a dangerous time.
Everything that normally makes me feel good isnt. Iv had such a bad time of it this year that the affect of everything that makes me feel good is wearing down, losing its effectiveness.
Sorry guys :(
