Magic Carpet please!
Once again my life is in shambles, pulled out form underneath for the millionth time this year. Why does this keep happening? argh.
I needed stability, and i had an awesome girl i was seeing casually and a place that was so awesome. There were no dramas, it was all fun and STABLE!
Then the girl said goodbye. We’re still friends it seems, but thats it, no more.
A few days later and i find out we have to move withing 4 weeks and have the place spotless because the damn owners want to move back in.
This is absolute shit, again. I thought i was over all that sort of stress. Now i have to worry about surviving yet again. Not enjoying myself, surviving.
must say it is what i do best, when the chips are down you can count on me to get on with the job no matter how emotionally compromised i may be.
It is absolute bollocks though. Really starting to feel as though i just attract bad luck no matter where i go. Nothing ever works out and its really starting to do my head in. Let me recap my year:
January: Awesome job, barely surviving financially, starting to get serious with a girl, living in an apartment with best friends.
February: Job, gone. Girl, gone. Friends, digging a knife in my back. Apartment, gone. Found new place that was ok, but not stable. Also managed to get a new job fairly quickly.
March: Awesome people in house gone. Taken over by a bunch of irish who took everything and anything they wanted.
Cant remember april, may, june. It was just stressful. Came off bike, serious accident. Finances catchup. Extremely depressed.
June/July: Started to meet up with an awesome girl. I could tell where things were going and it went there just how i imagined it would. I felt amazing
August: Found an awesome place with awesome people. Things were starting to look up and things couldnt have been better with the girl, though i wanted more from her than she wanted to give. Still, its a passion iv never felt before.
September: A few girl dramas but nothing much. Mostly my insecurities being sorted out.
October/November: Dramas got worse as i started to really like her. We had a break for a couple of weeks. Got my head sorted and confidence and sexiness soared. Relaxed about the girl, she started losing her head and got depressed etc. More dramas ensued.
More girls attracted to me.
December: My current position. No girls. No sexiness. Wavering confidence. Have to move out by 15th January.
What does the future hold? well now im not so sure. I just dont want to end up in a place where im stressed again. I just want to be able to relax.
Thats all from me.
Ciao
