The twitters!
Ah twitter, here we are again, at a point where i no longer feel welcome. Where i feel like once again people dont have an interest in what i have to say. I thought this time would be different because there were a few people that made the difference, a few people who genuinely seemed to care. Maybe i was wrong about that.
Dont get me wrong, there are some that do. For some reason or another theyre just not there when i need to talk though, and those left just dont seem interested.
In other news girl 1 seems to be hinting that what is happening now is temporary, that its just a “break” ie it might rebegin at some stage. “Who knows what the future holds” and calling me cutie all of sudden again. Considering everything thats happened i dont see how she could want to go back. Im not really sure if shes just fucking with my head on purpose or if she genuinely means it. Most of the time when i doubt her she has been genuine despite what i believe of her. I dont know, my history with women is extremely screwed up so nothing would surprise me tbh.
Anyway, no other news to report. Im still screwed on just about every front, too much to worry about in too little a time. In a year where iv lost absolutely everything multiple times except family, christmas is going to be hard. No family around etc. I cant even afford to get anyone presents, nothing at all, so its going to be difficult to get through.
In war when your forces are spread over multiple battles then you’re going to be severely weakened, and thats how i feel atm. Im too scattered and cant focus.
Oh well, hopefully everything will work out. Either that or im headed for another breakdown!
adios
